Quest-poem-Connected to Source a journey of experience-pg 16

Posted by Tina Thurston on

How much of life is living just under the radar?
Push the envelope a little bit, take the common mind too far.
Pull back and stay under
observe the worker ants as they scatter.
Fill your bubble of love and light
duality of nature, conformity of an image.
Love and hate become the same
complacency fuels a self rage.
I will not settle for a common view
too much to see before this life is through.
A rest cycle is much in need,
on the never ending  QUEST
life breeds a greed.
It could go both ways, lonely days spent in a haze,
or floating above this world.
An inner child awaits to play
something more than just a girl.
pg.16 ~Connected to Source a journey of experience
I can remember where I was when I wrote this poem.  In a parking lot in Marin, CA passing time knowing there was a poem to come out of me.  I was self-employed as a licensed massage therapist at this time.  Reflecting on portions of a chaotic life lived.  Pushed the envelope a bit at some places then pulled back to regroup and heal.  
"Observe the worker ants as they scatter"  is what I felt while watching people come and go in the parking lot. 
"Fill your bubble of love and light duality of nature, conformity of an image"
Mostly feeling that I was close to my heart and living from a place of love and light yet knowing places I had been and seen were quite the opposite. Conformity of an image I felt as I became a chameleon like presence to blend wherever. 
"Love and hate become the same complacency fuels a self rage"  I was growing deeper in financial debt of daily life while helping people feel better.  Questioning whether I was being complacent in my profession or it was just a stepping stone in the line of jobs to have.  
"I will not settle for the common view too much to see before this life is through" Ultimately deciding I will continue to see where life points me  and not be closed to opportunity that would get me out of debt and into a better financial place.  I could feel change was necessary but not sure what the change would be.  
"Floating above this world an inner child awaits to play something more than just a girl"  The belief that at some point in this life I would have a job, career, work to do that comes from inner child creativity. That no matter how many years I add to my existence I will have readily accessible that little girl inside.  
Through this month I continue to select poems from my poetry book and revisit their original place from my journals.  It is like visiting with old friends to dissect and share their creation from inspiration.
Thank you for reading.  Please leave comments if you like.

2 comments


  • I see how your writting was more than just writting to you. It was your friend, helped you cope! Everyone needs those kinds of friends! Thanks for sharing Tina.

    Mary on

  • I love to read about the background stories, I so wish your inner child happiness, safety and peace.

    anemone on

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